june 14th
This morning has been odd. I was adopted by a cat. Granted she thinks she claimed me, but I admit it. I seriously needed more love from that medium ball of fluffy kitty-ness. It’s been forever since there has been any affection in my world.
As for Josh, I hugged him. It’s not like I meant anything, but I am concerned he may have seen something more in that hug, other then just friendship. I Admit, it was nice to feel someone for once, but just as a friend. He seems to have lost faith in everything, even himself.
Goddess, help me. Help me show him that there is something to believe in, even though everything seems to have crashed around our feet. I know you are watching, and you mourning this as well. I know this is simply something we have to deal with, and those who have survived have to put things back together. It won’t be the same, but we have to try to find some mode of real life, and get ourselves together.
As for Xander, I am hoping he’s out there somewhere, I need him so much. And as for love, I know you’ve told me many times, that love is personal, and you had plans for me after Tara. I had thought it was Kennedy, but clearly I was wrong, but I get this feeling, there is someone out there somewhere who is the right person.


Goddess, help us, I’m afraid I may be running out of faith.