june 14th very early morning
no one ever gets everything they want. and i hate to sound trite, but sometimes you have to wait and see what else fate has to deal to you

maybe God/goddess has something even for fabulous for you in the future and you had to get though this crap first.

I'm the one person you should believe when I say that I truly think that everyone gets have something, and someone wonderful to spend their life with. I didn't use to believe it, but i do now. I used to think that fate was a bitch and she laughing at me. and I’m not saying she's the nicest thing in the world, but i have to believe that right now it may be raining, on both of us, and the storm clouds are lingering near by, but soon, the sun will start to clear the clouds away, and we will see the day brighter then ever before.

i am the queen of fuck ups and mistakes... of going right when i should have gone left of pushing away people when i should held them close, of holding them close when i should have shoved them away. I think life is like a path... and you sometimes have to repeat a few mistakes to get it right. no one is perfect. not you . not me.